Ginger reflects on how her story intersected with CBK and the opportunity to join a Confessional Community.
Written by Ginger
Jesus has always been part of my life, from my first memory leading in the choir at Christmas when I was 5, the shortest singer. When I was 11, we moved and mama never went to church again. I was confused and tried to go to a church I found, but it is very hard for an 11-year-old in the suburbs of Los Angeles to get there. I had my "spiritual awakening," as Brené Brown likes to call it, on 9/11/2001. I was 52. It would be 16 years before I would be in a room with Curt Thompson at a theology school in Seattle.
“My 'God wounding' started at birth ... I suspect I wasn't attuned with optimally. And everything developed in a distorted way . . . including the ability to recognize God.”
I cannot claim I know God, except the way opportunities unfold and I step into them—only He could orchestrate all that. And it has been a lot. But I don't "know" Him nor am I able to recognize Him the way you might. My “God wounding” started at birth, with forceps clamping my head to pull me into the bright—Eyes damaged and crossed. From the learning I've received since 2014, I suspect I wasn't attuned with optimally. And everything developed in a distorted way. Or didn't develop . . . including the ability to recognize God.
2006 was a very important year, especially for me and my pursuit of God and for answering the question "What happened to me?" Suddenly information not previously available to ordinary people became available through YouTube. In 2007, I finally found my way into the therapy chair and more questions could be answered on the internet and YouTube. At the age of 66 I discovered attachment theory. Allan Schore, Jim Wilder, Brené Brown and all the roads led to Curt Thompson and the Confessional Community. I had read Curt's books, heard the podcasts and wanted this community and friends he talks about. When it was announced last year there was going to be an opportunity to experience it, I fired off a request to be included.